Today the sun was shinning. What a beautiful Florida day! The weather seemed to be perfect and the tempature of my heart was warm. The day started with our small co-op. While my best friend taught the big kids I was doing a review game for Florida History with the little ones. We had an Easter Egg hunt - the eggs had questions and candy - if the child could answer the question they were allowed to keep the egg - if not it went back in the basket to be redrawn later in the game until all the eggs were gone -- the kids loved it and we went over a ton of questions. After usually the big kids have science co-op; but today science was cancelled so we went to Chick fila instead. The intention was just to stay for lunch - 2 hours later we were still laughing and carrying on - lunch with 2 friends - always a big treat! Off to park day - I had a meeting for next years co-op and the kids were going to play. My daughters talked me into taking my best friends daughters with us - I absolutely love the fact that my daughters best friends are my best friends daughters -- makes life so easy.
Many of the women in this group are new to me. I'm probably more open than I should be not really knowing them yet - but if my family is to be shunned I'd rather it happen before I consider them good friends and not after. Funny, it didn't happen - just the opposite, I found acceptance in a group of women that were like me. Maybe there is hope to have a "group" of friends again. I talked about the drive home from Arkansas and one of the women asked me why I had been there. I told her my son was in the hospital and she asked why. I took a deep breath and said - "he's there for mental issues". No one flinched. She said "Oh, you know I was hospitalized for 3 months as a teenager" she went on to tell me of her struggle with acute care facilities and then residential as a teen -- but most importantly -- how it helped her. She was my beacon of hope. She has a family, is a homeschool mom just like me, raising her family in the faith. There is hope for my child. I could see it in this womans life. She spoke of some really deep issues that she went through & said when she was finally ready to face her trauma - progress went a lot quicker. All the women sat there, engaged in conversation - no one flinching. I like this this group. I want to be a part of them and they seem willing to let me be. It's been a while since I "wanted" to be part of a group - once bitten twice shy. But I think we could belong here. I have one really good friend in this group who has been trying to get me to come for a while - should have listened sooner.
We then went to the meeting for co-op for next year - basic business stuff - what's to be taught, who's teaching what, etc... Funny it didn't really matter to me what was being taught - my children will be part of this group next year because of the acceptance they will receive; we will not be asked to leave because my son faces challenges in his life...
Today I dance with the sun on my face.